Myself

“I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself”

Innuendo

“Sometimes I have the strangest feeling about you. Especially when you are near me as you are now. It feels as though I had a string tied here under my left rib where my heart is, tightly knotted to you in a similar fashion”

Who are you?

“Do you think I am an automaton? — a machine without feelings? And can bear to have my morsel of bread snatched from my lips, and my drop of living water dashed from my cup? Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I am soulless and heartless?”

Fellina’s lullaby

“One day, a glazed look in her eyes, my mother said to me: ‘When you are in bed and you hear the barking of the dogs in the countryside, hide beneath your blanket, but do not deride what they do: they have an insatiable thirst for the infinite, as you, and I, and all other pale, long-faced human beings do”

Serendipity

“As beautiful as the chance encounter of a sewing machine and an umbrella on an operating table”

Music

“Better to be without logic than without feeling”

Hysteria (Pleasure II)

“I have cultivated my hysteria with pleasure and terror”

My thoughts

“The world may not like to see these ideas dissevered, for it has been accustomed to blend them; finding it convenient to make external show pass for sterling worth — to let white-washed walls vouch for clean shrines. It may hate him who dares to scrutinize and expose — to rise the gilding, and show base metal under it — to penetrate the sepulcher, and reveal charnel relics: but hate as it will, it is indebted to him”

To you… my reader

“By this curious turn of disposition I have gained the reputation of deliberate heartlessness; how undeserved, I alone can appreciate”

You’re free to be you Fellina

“I cannot express it; but surely you and everybody have a notion that there is or should be an existence of yours beyond you. What were the use of my creation, if I were entirely contained here?”